Balance

Sometimes I feel that I have a lot of things to write about, however, once I open a new page and I forgot what to say.




Sometimes things get clear when you're far from them, but that takes time. How can I do to see these earlier? I got headache these days, maybe my brain doesn't rest at nights.


Am I preparing for something?
Or, am I mourning for something?

新工作

今天終於確定了新工作 新公司

預期中  覺得自己會興高采烈的準備就職日的到來


不過  實際的自己  卻沒有這樣的心情和反應

他們有多瞭解我？
我有多瞭解他們？



沒有進去之前
沒有真正相處之前

都還是未知數吧！

I've decided to be more determined.



Maybe it's because of the supervisor is a bit too care about me, makes me feel like he's afraid that if I'm seeing other company and then leaving, or not willing to stay.

Maybe it is because this isn't an easy job for both him and me.


I've acknowledged from the companies I stayed with before that there must be something you need to deal/bear with, and do remember that never get too close to anyone.

The thing is, what I felt, during the interview, did I pretend I'm...maybe someone else? Or, both you and me are seeing the appearances we would like to be seen? Yes, you can understand some parts of me and maybe some visions I'm showing , but there are really some part of me that you'll never know at that moment. I know it is a truth and that's how it works. I'm just puzzled.

After these years, from the day I've been working, did I really grow up?
Do I really have better ability in business now?
Do I never get satisfied?
Am I a liar?


The only one thing I'm sure of is there are lots of things I'm pursuing.