時間

一週的時間就像跑馬燈一樣

即將到達週末的區塊

但是我一點也沒有快樂的感覺

我的時間被誰快轉了？

書

昨天在法雅客閒晃得時候

突然有一種感覺------




不管怎麼樣，我都離不開書；
                                               不管怎麼樣，都要一直看書。


書店其實很難被取代的吧
握在手上的那份真實
從手上沾染到的汗汙
斑黃或捲曲
記號或書籤

整面牆的書
佔有與擁有的慾望
是打開資料夾裡的
一個個排列的檔名
很難輕易取代的吧

我還是愛買書


即使電腦裡也存了不少"書"

？

看到產品放到NOVA賣

不知道是什麼感覺

Never Be The Same Again ,by Darren Hayes

Lover
Hostage in an aeroplane
Lover
Feels like I've been here all day
And the ocean feels like Mars
And the acid feels like rain
If a broken heart is broken
Then how can it still feel pain?

You can take a broken heart
And smash it through a windowpane
It will break right through
But it'll never be the same again
And you can take a cactus heart
Leave it in the driving rain
And though it might flower
Things will never be the same again
Never be the same again

Oh, lover
I'm walking down the same highway
And lover
I'm all alone; there's no one here to blame
And now everything's familiar
But nothing feels the same
And my dusty mouth is empty
'Cause there's nothing left to say

You can take a broken heart
And smash it through a windowpane
It can break right through
But things will never be the same again
And you can take a cactus heart
Leave it in the driving rain
And though it might flower
It will never be the same again
Never be the same again

Lover
Don't try to dry your eyes
Lover
Look to the desert sky
And there's no use in imagining
Or resurrecting what could have been
'Cause you know just as well as I
That everything must die
Hello is goodbye
It's time to say goodbye
Everything must die

You can take a broken heart
And smash it through a windowpane
You can break right through
But things will never be the same again
And you can take a cactus heart
Leave it in the driving rain
And though it might flower
We will never be the same again
Never be the same again

This is the song I like lately, its rhythm corresponds to its album name, we are smug, but not its lyrics. Darren's music is sexy as usual and with true feelings inside the lyrics. 

I can feel pain heavily from the lyrics but still slight hope in it you can find in details, and I like the rhythm and composition so much. Hope you like it!

How?

別人都是怎麼活著的？

不會像我這樣不斷的重複ups and downs

willing

默默的覺得也不能怎樣....默默的覺得你這個人很懶.

.... 默默的想理清楚頭緒....

you have to insist






I have to insist











My problem is.....
somehow I never get deep into anything



and I am the only one being able to change it
I know

in schedule

I am trying to set everything in schedule, also to learn a new way to manage my life.

will try to work it out

我就是又笨又傻

我不想只追求自己個人的利益

我不想過6雞 負5K的生活 （賽局理論雞蛋遊戲.....）

也許很傻
可是我相信只要我一直選蛋
就可以去說服別人相信我 一起選蛋

雖然一直賠
但看不清最大利益的人不是我
不願意踏出自以為的保護罩的人不是我

I want to be

The main core is: comfortable, pleasant, sincere, thoughtful, and of course, professional!!

note

You'll always feel better when you told one about what you felt, I suppose.

不可以

不可以
不可以
不可以
不可以
不可以
不可以


不可以放空

不可以放棄

不可以回到那段日子

Darren Hayes

三不五時就需要來宣洩一下有多愛DarrenHayes的歌

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=014ocCvALjc

So Beautiful

I think it is because of his honest and true feeling from his heart, also his delicate and exquisite personality made him so beautiful and his songs as well.

The first time I listened to his song, I was maybe 14, but I could feel how strong the feeling is within his voice, and afterwards, when I was able to understand the story from his lyric, I realized that he is a very different person and you can easily fall in love with his music, you can be easily touched, and you'll find how delicate he is from the lines he wrote and how he composed magically and beautifully.

Dear Darren,

Life is so great being accompanied with your songs!!

S O   B E A U T I F U L
d a r r e n  h a y e s
Darren Hayes net | Darren Hayes Lyrics Menu

Whether I'm right or wrong
There's no phrase that hits
Like an ocean needs the sand
Or a dirty old shoe that fits
And if all the world was perfect
I would only ever want to see your scars
You know they can have their universe
We'll be in the dirt designing stars

And darlin' you know
You make me feel so beautiful
Nowhere else in the world I wanna be
You make me feel so beautiful

Whether I'm up or down
There's no crowd to please
I'm like a faith without a clause to believe in it

And if all the world was smiling

I would only ever want to see your frown

You know they can sail away in sunsets

We'll be right here stranded on the ground

Just happy to be found

You make me feel so beautiful
Nowhere else in the world I wanna be
You make me feel so beautiful

I have lost my illusions
I have drowned in your words
I have left my confusion to a cynical world
I am throwing myself at things I don't understand
Discover enlightenment holding your hand

You are..
So Beautiful

Jason Walker - Down

I don’t know where I’m at
I’m standing at the back
And I’m tired of waiting
Waiting here in line, hoping that I’ll find what I’ve been chasing.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Never know why it’s coming down, down, down.

Not ready to let go
Cause then I'd never know
What I could be missing
But I’m missing way too much
So when do I give up what I’ve been wishing for.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Never know why it’s coming down, down, down.
Oh I am going down, down, down
Can’t find another way around
And I don’t want to hear the sound, of losing what I never found.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
I never know why it’s coming down, down, down.

I shot for the sky
I’m stuck on the ground
So why do I try, I know I’m gonna fall down
I thought I could fly, so why did I drown?
Oh it’s coming down, down, down.

自由落體

記得n年前
去了遊樂場 玩了自由落體的遊樂設施

願意玩的原因是因為
反正很短暫  不像海盜船
搖來搖去   搖一輩子....


機器到達頂端的時候
看著遠方及腳下
發麻的腳底
恍惚的肌力
伴隨著往下掉落的速度

恐懼的感覺
恐懼的感覺
恐懼的感覺


因為想法的不同而被解放了



don't try to resist it, just feel it
enjoy the feeling of falling


著地了
我感覺到無比的輕鬆與解放

from my supervisor

 without getting into any frustration that you cannot possibly understand or accept
 and also helps you find ways to avoid those frustrations and get the sales more efficiently

Balance

Sometimes I feel that I have a lot of things to write about, however, once I open a new page and I forgot what to say.




Sometimes things get clear when you're far from them, but that takes time. How can I do to see these earlier? I got headache these days, maybe my brain doesn't rest at nights.


Am I preparing for something?
Or, am I mourning for something?

新工作

今天終於確定了新工作 新公司

預期中  覺得自己會興高采烈的準備就職日的到來


不過  實際的自己  卻沒有這樣的心情和反應

他們有多瞭解我？
我有多瞭解他們？



沒有進去之前
沒有真正相處之前

都還是未知數吧！

I've decided to be more determined.



Maybe it's because of the supervisor is a bit too care about me, makes me feel like he's afraid that if I'm seeing other company and then leaving, or not willing to stay.

Maybe it is because this isn't an easy job for both him and me.


I've acknowledged from the companies I stayed with before that there must be something you need to deal/bear with, and do remember that never get too close to anyone.

The thing is, what I felt, during the interview, did I pretend I'm...maybe someone else? Or, both you and me are seeing the appearances we would like to be seen? Yes, you can understand some parts of me and maybe some visions I'm showing , but there are really some part of me that you'll never know at that moment. I know it is a truth and that's how it works. I'm just puzzled.

After these years, from the day I've been working, did I really grow up?
Do I really have better ability in business now?
Do I never get satisfied?
Am I a liar?


The only one thing I'm sure of is there are lots of things I'm pursuing.